you see an expanse of dry leaves glimmering in the sun

you are the earth dried by the hot sun, a tree abandoned by its soil

you are a bird's skeleton drifting on the cold wind

you are a fish that has been tossed onto a river bank, a bird that has been plunged into the sea

you lie hidden inside your body, like a stowaway concealing himself in the hold of a ship

While watching the news today, I found out that it was the release of the PSLE results. Its been 12 years since I got mine. That was just the start of the 50m mark then. I fuck up my PSLE then and didn't really got bothered by it though. But somehow I managed to wake up for the O's and kept pace in the race to the 200m mark. Well, right now I am at the 350 mark and when next sems starts, I'll reach the 375m mark before crossing the finishing line.

What a journey it has been.

I finally see some sunlight

Since Sunday, I haven't really got much sleep. Having a paper consecutively for the past three days caused me a headache especially when there is so much memorizing for CE management. Glad the worst is over too. My eyes were hurting so much from lack of sleep that after the paper today, I just collapsed on my bed when I reached home. But even falling into a coma, I still managed to squeeze in a dream, not a good one though. I dreamt that my FYP Prof was fucking me, not proper fucking in that sense but screwing me for some problems with the project. Which reminds me that after my last paper next thurs, my december hols are gonna be immersed with my FYP project. Life just gets more boring.

The current HK drama Forensic heroes on channel U 10pm is very interesting. I have to admit I still managed to watch the drama everyday despite the stress. Can't be studying the whole time anyway. Oh ya cashmere mafia looks good too, abit like desperate housewives.

Well I am a TV junkie afterall.

Just a couple of hours ago, I took my first paper in a year. Dunno why but I felt nervous and jitters. When I was in primary school, I used to pray to Jesus before a paper. In O Levels, I was so nervous I had to take sleeping pills the night before to sleep. As for the A's, I had to drink Brandy in the night to sleep. Well before yesterday's paper, I was watching Family guy and Simpsons to calm down.

Is Barack Obama the new black hero? Well older generation pple will prob argue that Jesse Owens was the first black hero for winning 3 Olympic gold medals in front of Hitler and his so called Aryan theory supporters. Some say Joe Louis for being the first black heavy weight boxing champion. Then there is Michael Jordan, Tiger Woods and now Lewis Hamilton.

The critics can say what they want, but in my opinion, there is only one true black hero and he is Wally Amos. Just for creating the Famous Amos cookies, he gets my vote.

It sucks going to sleep knowing full well that you will only wake up the next day just to do past year papers the whole day. It made me think back to the times when I was on attachment, waking up to the nice sunny weather and a hot cuppa of coffee.

Oh well.

Personally I feel the US presidential contest is nothing more than an American Idol contest. I don't get what the fuss is up with everyone cheering the Obama win. Ya just because change is good, because he is black, because it is cool and hip to be voting for Obama. Ask the average African American on the street what economic policies Mr Obama is pushing for, I bet their bollocks they stand a better chance of guessing the correct NBA score. In my opinion, no matter who helms the post, that person is bound to fuck up at some point. Why? Because at the end of the day, no one likes the Yankees.

Anyway congrats to Mr Obama for being the 44th US President. What an auspicious number. Good luck to him. It has been forty years since Martin Luther King's assassination. Lets just hope that change is good and not just a dream.

Maybe its from the stress building up because recently, I seem to be hallucinating. I seem to see certain things but after a second look, its gone. No its not like Ghost Whisperer thank god. And no I am not on weed or LSD.

Maybe I am just estranged.

It is highly rumoured that the format for this semester's advanced steel exams questions will be changed. Once again, we are the first batch. What can I say? Must be our batch.

The system has morally let me down.

Well If I had it my way, I would give up everything here and spend the remaining of my days in Norway or Denmark.

Not many people will know this, but I actually own a bandanna and used to wear it (only once though). Of course I didn't wear it the way David Gan does, more like a sweatband. It still ranks as my top fashion disaster. Well to be honest, it was inspired from Axl Rose of Guns n Roses. In fact, I also bought a guitar before enlisting for army because I wanted to be like Slash.

Why am I suddenly mentioning this now? Cos I reckon its time to clean out my closet.

If there were no job discrimination, social prejudice and parent's objection, I would have gotten a tattoo on my right shoulder arm and left forearm. Sadly, this will remain a regret till my death.

The grey clouds sums up my mood in school everyday.

Fuck me, but just when I am to graduate next year, the economy has to be in sixes and seven.

I seriously think there is a conspiracy against my batch. Someone up there must be thinking, 'look lads, we're gonna fuck this '84 batch up and watch them suffer in their misery'. It has to be the '84 batch. We were the first batch required to sit for the 'what the fuck was that for' SAT test to enter university. Then two years later, they abolished the test, yeah splendid, thanks for sucking my money. Then I had to be in the first armour bronco battalion, which is another story for another day. Then we had to be the first NTU batch to undergo the GPA and SU system and now my faculty has to be the first batch to have individual integrated design assignments. Its amazing to think over 24 years, I've achieved many firsts. About the future, I think I am just living on thin fucking ice.

84 divide by 2 = 42. Must be a conspiracy.

It is getting harder to breathe.

Trial match unglam photos

Just a short while ago, my neighbour was shouting outside his door. Somehow my neighbours locked him out and he was shouting at them presumably to let him in. It was all in Tamil so pardon me. He started to scream and bang the gate. Well at midnight doing that, that was pretty daft. Anyway the police just came and took him away. He even had the balls to tell the police not to interfere in him telling his wife off. Full marks to him. Maybe the next time I see him, assuming I do see him again, I should shake his hand.

I can't believe the Fang tribe chose to vote Jacquie off instead of Kelly. They are so gonna suck even more at the challenges. Crystal, GC and Kelly are the weakest players in survivor. They practically do not even participate at all! Totally zero effort. If I ever had such members in my group, I will kill them. Then again, I did encounter one in my tech comm project. I busted that guy's ass. My current project team has one slacker but since he is entertaining, I shall forgive him.